Hari nie hari keje yang amat menyakitkan hati..Sebab hari nie dah la first day of Period, dah tu pulak kene duduk kat ofis tgk orang buat editing.
Yang paling tak boleh bla bile boss u start tanya pasal boifie u, sakit hati pun ade jugak la..mana tak nya, bile die tibe2 nak interfere my privacy!!
But I was acting really cool..like really really cool, when I just put a big smile on my face.. Senyum je la nak buat macam mana kan..dah die boss.. tak kan nak tengking..
But sometimes, its really hard to deal with these people yang suka KEPOCI pasal orang lain..Well deep inside I do believe that they just want to run away from they very own personal matters. Tapi sumpah!! Sangat menyakitkan hati..bile they try to act like they are so good..everyone has "skeletons in their closet". Bukan ape, I don't mind kalau u nak ambil berat pasal masalah I, tapi at the same time, Please jgn kutuk and bring me down..Bukan ape. bile u cakap macam hidup u tu bagus sangat..at the end of the day, people actually do know that your life sucks too!!
Dah tu pasal my privacy life I tak suka bile org masuk campur and nak kata that I should do this instead of that!! Who are you to say that!! You are not even my mother, so STOP acting like one. Kalau aku nak bercinta dengan orang Indonesia ke Filippina ke, Siam ke, yang paling penting sekali aku tak pernah kacau hidup kau!! Dah tu pulak it doesn't even give impact to ur life. So plz stay away from my personal life..Aku buat kerja aku bagi siap!! Dah tu aku perform waktu kerja, tak de pulak aku nak bawak masalah peribadi aku campur adukkan dengan masalah kerja aku!! BETUL TAK?Aku perform, bukan tak perform, lainlah kalau aku angau, and masa kerja aku asyik ingat boyfriend aku!!
Cukup la dengan sedara mara aku yang suka jaga tepi kain aku, tak payah nak tambahkan lagi masalah aku! I have to deal with my parents, my family, my uncle's and auntie's, my cousins' and the list goes on!! and at the same time I just find it somehow irrelevant when they all try to get involved with my life..Aku kahwin nanti ade ke masalah aku jadi masalah mereka jugak?? I am sorry if I sound to harsh in this posting!! But seriousl aku dah naik fed up dengan manusia yang suka sangat campur tangan dalam urusan hidup orang lain..especially bile mereka tidak diperlukan langsung!!
somewhere where i can share my thoughts on all the issues that slipped through my mind
Monday, February 14, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Family Drama
Lately I have been really busy, like seriously busy, and at times I realize I haven't had time for myself..Thanx to my organizer, it keeps me UPDATED all the time, but there are apart of me that I haven't been really been paying attention a lot!! My <3 life..
Why am I so concern about it?
Well, I am still young and still have a long journey ahead of me..well most of the times I think about that..but there is something deeper inside that worries me the most..
my sexual desire..
I can say I have a really strong fantasy when it comes to man..here I literally emphasize on only one man, MY BOYFRIEND!!
We have actually been officially together for One Year and Eight months, somehow, in a few days time. But seriously I haven't been with him in that situation that I really want to be..You know...the intimacy part..and its not like I am legal bout it yet, but I bet everyone has that feelings..the curious feeling that u want to know how would it be if you are with that ONE and ONLY MAN you <3!!
Not only that, I am also having a problem with my family, I have been lying to them ever since the beginning, well its not like I don't feel guilty, I DO!! But the thing is, I wouldn't want them to be judging him just because he is an INDONESIAN, not like he is a bad guy, a liar, or even a thief, he is a guy who sells Fried bananas by the roadside and I am so not a shame to admit that I truly am in LOVE with him!!
He is a hardworking man..one of the most hardworking I have ever know..Although he has his flaws, but he is a human and human do make mistakes..but as far as I am concern he is just human...and I can accept him for all his mistakes.
Well I have got to go for now, there are guest downstairs..ttyl
Why am I so concern about it?
Well, I am still young and still have a long journey ahead of me..well most of the times I think about that..but there is something deeper inside that worries me the most..
my sexual desire..
I can say I have a really strong fantasy when it comes to man..here I literally emphasize on only one man, MY BOYFRIEND!!
We have actually been officially together for One Year and Eight months, somehow, in a few days time. But seriously I haven't been with him in that situation that I really want to be..You know...the intimacy part..and its not like I am legal bout it yet, but I bet everyone has that feelings..the curious feeling that u want to know how would it be if you are with that ONE and ONLY MAN you <3!!
Not only that, I am also having a problem with my family, I have been lying to them ever since the beginning, well its not like I don't feel guilty, I DO!! But the thing is, I wouldn't want them to be judging him just because he is an INDONESIAN, not like he is a bad guy, a liar, or even a thief, he is a guy who sells Fried bananas by the roadside and I am so not a shame to admit that I truly am in LOVE with him!!
He is a hardworking man..one of the most hardworking I have ever know..Although he has his flaws, but he is a human and human do make mistakes..but as far as I am concern he is just human...and I can accept him for all his mistakes.
Well I have got to go for now, there are guest downstairs..ttyl
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