Arguments

I'm crying out for HELP,
But there was no one out there who could hear me,
I feel empty,
I feel numb, no one was there to help me
arguments after another arguments,
tend to make things worst,
but again,
like I was all alone, I feel like a THING that no one bother to hold,
bother to care, bother to even look,
I feel so devastated, so weak,
there was no one to turn my back to,
no one that would like to share a shoulder to cry,
I feel like cutting myself again,
just to see if it bleeds,
but that was before,
and now,
things are totally different,
things have change,
it wasn't like before,
I've made a promise to him,
to myself,
as long as I Love him ,
but now it just feel like there is no point of keeping those promises
that I've made,
he doesn't seems to care,
It just feel different,
when there is no one who actually care,
no one who actually want to know,
no one who actually bothers,
I am screaming on top of my lungs
and she who is next to me couldn't even hear it..