Family Drama

Lately I have been really busy, like seriously busy, and at times I realize I haven't had time for myself..Thanx to my organizer, it keeps me UPDATED all the time, but there are apart of me that I haven't been really been paying attention a lot!! My <3 life..
Why am I so concern about it?
Well, I am still young and still have a long journey ahead of me..well most of the times I think about that..but there is something deeper inside that worries me the most..
my sexual desire..
I can say I have a really strong fantasy when it comes to man..here I literally emphasize on only one man, MY BOYFRIEND!!
We have actually been officially together for One Year and Eight months, somehow, in a few days time. But seriously I haven't been with him in that situation that I really want to be..You know...the intimacy part..and its not like I am legal bout it yet, but I bet everyone has that feelings..the curious feeling that u want to know how would it be if you are with that ONE and ONLY MAN you <3!!
Not only that, I am also having a problem with my family, I have been lying to them ever since the beginning, well its not like I don't feel guilty, I DO!! But the thing is, I wouldn't want them to be judging him just because he is an INDONESIAN, not like he is a bad guy, a liar, or even a thief, he is a guy who sells Fried bananas by the roadside and I am so not a shame to admit that I truly am in LOVE with him!!
He is a hardworking man..one of the most hardworking I have ever know..Although he has his flaws, but he is a human and human do make mistakes..but as far as I am concern he is just human...and I can accept him for all his mistakes.
Well I have got to go for now, there are guest downstairs..ttyl

blushed

I have never thought that this would happen,
I have always adore him,
But he is beyond my reach,
So I try to push those feelings far away,
He is just simple,
But there are things about him that attracts me,
and I don't know what,
Always look at him while he make his way to the destination,
Never thought that he knows my existence,
until today,
when I walk passed him and he called out my name and said Hi!!
I blushed
I can feel that y heart is jumping,
heee