One Month

Gosh!! It has been one months since he is gone..i am not bragging about my relationship.But I wonder how can I stand a long period of being apart from him. Well good to know that he will be back by this Wednesday (which is like 2 days to go).
I am not saying that I am uncomfortable with this relationship, but somehow there are things that I can considered to be blurry. For instance, I am having a relationship with myself or am I having a relationship with another individual. He calls me ones in a while, reasons he is saving up for his trip back here.
There are times when I was wondering what am I getting myself into? He seems to be a nice guy, for all I know he is one of those guys who is in my top 3 list of the guy that I can trust and can seems to be decent. But that is just him in front of me. Back from the place where he comes from, seriously he has been someone different not totally different, but slightly different.
I am not judging him, thus maybe he might need some time apart..u know.. I think I should give him a break. Let him chill with his mates. hmm.. Perhaps I think I should.

Tak Faham

Bila kau susah nak cari aku,
bila kau marah, kau marah padaku,
Kau sedih, kau cerita padaku,
kadang-kadang aku runsing,
Siapakah aku padamu,
setiap kali kau mengucapkan kata cinta,
hatiku berbunga,
namun
Tiap kali kau tinggikan suara,
Aku hanya menerima,
tidak pernah sekali pun aku melawan,
tapi aku bukannya barang mainan,
yang boleh kau campak ketika bosan
Aku juga punya hati dan perasaan,
Aku tahu aku sering mengagungkanmu,
walau ternyata,
mereka kata,
ada yang lebih baik buat diriki,
kekadang aku terasa lemah,
namun
kau adalah tulang belakangku..
aku cintakan kau

blushed

I have never thought that this would happen,
I have always adore him,
But he is beyond my reach,
So I try to push those feelings far away,
He is just simple,
But there are things about him that attracts me,
and I don't know what,
Always look at him while he make his way to the destination,
Never thought that he knows my existence,
until today,
when I walk passed him and he called out my name and said Hi!!
I blushed
I can feel that y heart is jumping,
heee

Him

Him,
He is a simple guy,
Yet he managed to win my heart,
It has been almost six months
Six beautiful months since we were together,
I hardly know anything bout him,
He is so secretive, mysterious,
Funny, loving, caring,
Gosh I feel really lucky..
Really lucky,
People all around me said,
this is so wrong,
he won't be good for me,
But I think that he is just
more than who they think he is,
As far as im concern,
He is the only one that
makes me feel sane,
He is the only person that makes it feels so wrong
When there is a devil in me,
He makes me feels like everything's alright,
when everything is in a chaos
he makes me feel that there,
Thank You Love,
May Allah Bless U!!

dull..

I don't even know why lately. I have been feeling so lost,so empty, its like there is a lot of things that i still feel insecure off. I don't know! and Im confused as well. my life used to be so much more different, better appreciated shall i say. But now..now i am totally lost. Im trying to find something that i can hold on tight to but I'm not sure of what it really is. Was it someone that makes me feel this way. At this moment somehow, all i can say is that i feel totally numb..and it hurts alot. you know its like living with no emotions. I have plans for today.. I plan to have a lil chat and some coffee with my dearest buddy, Ash!! i hope that will kill my dullness.. haha.. signing off!!

I care

I am feeling really disappointed..I am really feeling frustrated..U know how it feels when someone who is really closed to me had changed..if the changes are more to the brighter side..I might have been approved it..but unfortunately its the other..I am a strong believer that human will only learn when they make mistakes..but u are totally the opposite..never want to listen..i am confused..hope that u know..its not like i want to control ur life..
I don't want u to trip..coz I care..

2012

Yesterday, 21/11/09 Saturday, went out to watch a movie 2012. I, somehow am not really looking forward to watch it, because I am not really into that sci-fi epic movie.. To me its really dull, so i told my friend.."jom la tgk cite lain, The Box ke Jeniffer's Body" but he refused to..so i was like okay fine we'll just watch it..

We que up and bought the ticket for the sow time at 5.30 pm. Since it was just around 2.45 pm so we decided to walk around One Utama. We walk around, and by 5.15 pm, we starts to Que up to get popcorn. (I've always love popcorn..hehe). Then I was surprised when someone just tap my shoulder and called up my name. So I turned around and was surprised to see that it was my friend, Huzaibah, she is preggy..34 weeks if i can remember she said..I was like wow..she is my age, has been my friend since primary school..wow..and the next thing i know, she is preggy..

What a shock!! I don't mean it in a bad way..but my head is still trying to absorb that fact in my head..Loads of things just happen drastically and its hard to believe..before this everything seems to go as we plan..and somehow, when i spent some time chatting with Zaki I discovered lots of things that makes my head feels like it want to blow off.. Damn!!

Back about 2012, I have to give credits to them as somehow, the movie manage to keep me awake, good effects, I seems to like it somehow..heehee